Worst Fear
I live by music. My life has a soundtrack.
There’s always been a song, in every period of my life that just “fit”. I call them my theme songs. They change as I grow and learn, and together, they make the soundtrack of my life. My song at the moment is Fingerprints by Katy Perry.
Why all this about a song if the title of the blog post is about fear? Because this song makes me think about my greatest fear;
Not being remembered once I’m gone.
I’ve come to a conclusion. When you look at the timeline of my life, I don’t want it to simply be one long straight line with a few markers on it. I want mine to look like it was written by someone who had too much caffeine and was writing with a battery operated pen that was incapable of writing in a straight line. Squiggles and peaks and dips… So much stuff going on you can’t see straight.
I want to be remembered long after I’m gone. I want people to know who I was. I want people to WANT to know who I was. But more importantly, I want to be someone and do something that quantifies this need of remembrance. So, as the song says…
Voted most likely
To end up on the back ok a milk box drink
Looks like I’m letting ‘em down
‘Cause seventy seventy-five
Isn’t worth and hour of my hard work and time
When you can’t afford half the shit they advertise
Oh I’m worth more than a X
More than a toe-tagged generation full of regrets
Ohh I won’t settle no oh
Oh I can’t settle
I wanna break the mold
Wanna break the stereotype
Fist in the air
I’m not going down with out a fight
(Chorus)
It’s my life
And I’m not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I’m leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
I’m leaving my fingerprints
I’m leaving my fingerprints
I’m leaving my fingerprints on you
Representing you and me
Don’t you wanna go down in history
Rather than end up
Begging on the streets
Trading under table favors
For a place to sleep
‘Cause I’m worth more than this
So stop writing prescriptions for more Ritalin
I can focus my attention
I wanna break the mold
Wanna break the stereotype
Fist in the air
I’m not going down with out a fight
(Chorus)
It’s my life
And I’m not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I’m leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
I’m leaving my fingerprints
I’m leaving my fingerprints
Don’t give up
Don’t give in
Build your house on the rock
Oh not in the sand, in the sand, in the sand, in the sand
(Chorus)
It’s my life
And I’m not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I’m leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
It’s my life
And I’m not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I’m leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
‘Cause I’m leaving my fingerprints
I’m leaving my fingerprints
I’m leaving my fingerprints in the END
